Kate and Haldir - The Debate
"Nimrodel?" he asked lifting her chin to his face.
"I want to go to bed. Excuse me," she said walking past him.
He grasped her arm.
"Nimrodel, tell me what is wrong."
"I cannot. It is better if you do not know."
"You do not have to call me Nimrodel anymore. You may call me Kate," she said simply.
"Kate. I have never heard that name before."
"My full name is Kalista. You may call me Kate."
"Kate, how did you remember?"
"Goodnight Lord of Lorien."
He watched her disappear into her room feeling puzzled.
Kate woke up the next morning and yawned seeing the sunlight filter through her room. She looked around the room and instantly sat up when she saw Haldir sitting in the chair with a frown upon his face.
"Oh," she groaned. "What are you doing here?" she asked standing up from the bed.
He stood up and faced her. He took her hand and opened it.
"My brother returned this to me last night," he said angrily laying the silver necklace in her hand.
She stood up and faced the window. "Lorien-" she was about to say.
"Haldir," he corrected turning her to face him. "I said I gave it to you. Tis a gift. Keep it."
"No, Haldir. I can't accept it."
"Because I know what this is a sign for."
"I simply wish you to wear it."
"That is not the only reason. You dont understand.."
"Then make me. What happened last night? How did you learn of your name? Do not hide it from me. You are afraid. I can see it in your eyes."
"Get out!" she pointed to the door.
"No!" he said closing the distance between them. "Not until you tell me."
"Well then I guess you will just have to stand here all day."
"I guess I will."
He did not move, but stared at her piercing her with his blue eyes. She shifted uncomfortable feeling the sunrays on her back. He leaned in closer so she was pushed up against the window with nowhere to run. She leaned back against the window as he inched near her face. She was afraid he was going to kiss her.
"I can't. Don't you understand that I can't?"
"No I do not. Make me understand."
She pushed him away and made for the door. She opened it, but only got it ajar briefly when his hand collided with it.
"I did not say you could leave."
"Haldir, if you don't let me go this instant, I am going to do something desperate."
"Empty threat," he simply sound.
With that, her fist connected with his jaw. He was thrown back not realizing how strong she was.
"Actions speak louder than words," she laughed.
He touched his jaw and looked at his hand. It was bleeding, but he was not finished with her. As he made for the door, she slammed it loudly, and it connected with his head. Haldir landed on the floor again. Why was she hiding what he should rightfully know? He made his way to the stairs but could not see her figure anywhere. Haldir gave up hope and decided there were better things he could occupy his time with than attempting to look for Kate.
Kate continued running until she had reached the bottom of the stairs. There was only one place which could help take her midn away from Haldir at the moment. Rumil had told her of where the library stood. She opened the door to the enclosed building. She was glad that no others were there. It was a beautiful glass encased building with trees surrounding it, and vines crawling up its sides. Kate went to the shelf and searched for books to read. But as she took a seat beside the fire and opened a book, she instantly wondered how she knew to read. Kate poured through the books easily without any difficulty. She could read! Kate spent the entire morning unto the evening reading. She then heard the door finally open and a figure walk inside.
"My brothers said you have been in here since the morn. It is coming back then," Haldir said approaching her.
"I can read. I do not know how. It is not coming back. I dont know how I can do this. It's the same with this," she said turning around showign Haldir the braid in her hair. "I can read, I can write, I can braid my hair. I do not even know what I am looking for."
"It shall return, Kate. Be patient."
"What if it doesnt? What if I never know who I am or who my family is, Haldir? What if?" Kate closed the book and buried her face in her hands ashamed of herself.
"Whatever you need me to do, I shall do it for you. If you wish me to go to the far ends of the earth to search for a book, I will go. I will be here to aid you in whatever you need. And if you bid me to leave your side, I shall not. What can I do, Kate? How can I help you?"
His word surprised her. They even surprised Haldir. He had never spoken this way to any woman. He always suspected them to aid him and to pleasure him. As he saw the tears beginning to cloud Kate's eyes, he enveloped her in his arms allowing her head to rest against his chest.
"No one can imagine what you are going through," he said rustling her hair.
"I keep having these flashbacks. I do not know what to make of them. I just am tired. I want to sleep, but I do not wish to sleep."
"I will accompany you to your room."
Haldir did so. They did not speak as they ascended the winding stairs. Haldir did not know what to make of her. He wished to help her in some way to regain her memory. Yet she seemed so far off and so distant. Yet when he held her, she was inside his soul.
"Thank you, Haldir. I will be fine now," she said as she reached his door.
"Kate, I want you to take this back," he said holding the necklace to her.
"We will talk later. Later."
He sighed. "I would never let any other girls to do this. Goodnight Kate. May your dreams be sweet."
"I do not know."